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[13 Sep 2002|04:39am] |
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Hey everyone. Yeah, I know; "Long time no see" or "Oh my God! You're still alive!?"
I'm sorry that I've been gone for so long; so much has been happening over the past 3 to 4 months, and my life is just so full of work right now trying to pay off my debts before going to college next year.
I should be asleep right now...but for some reason I'm not able to at the moment. Which is bad actually since I have work later and I'm getting sick. I just read someone's opinion on the world...I guess that's why I can't sleep right now...
To be honest, I'm looking over my life right now. All the actions I took and what my personal beliefs are...if you were to see both separately, it would look like two different people entirely I guess. The things I've said in the past, and some things I say today...Yes, I say people suck sometimes...or a lot perhaps, depends on the timeline of my life I guess; and that I don't have a religion really...but if you look at my beliefs, they fall in with Christianity really; only I don't believe people who are not Christian will go to hell. Heck, I don't even know if that's what Christians think or believe. I sure don't want to offend anyone due to my lack of full understanding, and I apologize now if I have insulted anyone so far.
Why would I think that? I guess with the surroundings I grew up in it seemed like there is only ONE RIGHT religion, and that everything else is wrong and will go to hell or simply die and that's it. Call me a fool, or whatever you wish; but I can't live with the fact that only one thing can be right in this world. It hurts too much...my heart literally hurts just thinking about all those people who would go to hell or just die because only one thing is right. I believe that whatever a person believes in their heart will be what happens to them; the individual. Yes, I believe in God, Jesus, Heaven and Hell; but what about everyone else? What do I think will happen to someone who believes in Reincarnation? What else; I believe that they will be reincarnated because that's those individual people belive in their hearts. It apply to all things. Although...it is ironic of me isn't it? To say that everyone should believe what their hearts tell them to believe; yet, in a way I wish people would look at things as I do on this. I'm sorry...but the pain hurts too much...even children can have a horrible fate await them if only one thing is true...
Am I a coward? Someone who has blinded himself from the harsh reality of our world? I know full well on what's going. How bad things are; and how when I'm happy, thousands upon thousands of other innocent people are either dying, suffering, or who knows what else. Is it wrong to be happy? I asked myself this so many times before...and as always I give myself this answer. [Life is precious. Never waste it.] I know people people are always hurting...I know it because my heart feels it. Yes, I'm saying I can feel the pain of other people...
I can't give up living, nor being happy. I wish I could make the whole world happy; or at least, take everyone's pain upon myself so everyone could be happy. A foolish dream? The world at peace and that the human race as a whole getting along fine? Someone needs to dream of such a thing right? I know I do, and how I wish I could bring some kind of hope to people...
I myself am guilty of my own personal sins. I swear, get angry, hurt people...hell, I almost destroyed Love one time between one of my best friends and a best friend of mine now who at the time was just beginning to trust in someone again. Yes, humans can destroy even love...I almost did from jealousy...all the things I've done to hurt people...I can't forget them...the pain of those that I've hurt will always be with me...bleeding inside me as a reminder...as I try to never hurt anyone else again...but somehow I do...I am not perfect...not in the least bit...but still...some of my friends...and complete strangers have told me that I somehow give them hope for people.
Give people hope for people? That's what I never understand really. My life for the most part has me just being myself. Not trying to fit in, or hang out with the "popular" group at school. Just little old quite me. Yet...a person being who they truly are seems to give others hope for people. At least...that's what I seem to think.
We all live and die. For the most part none of our existence will even matter. I don't care though. As an individual, a human being, with good and bad qualities, in all my imperfect, hopeful, always dreaming me; I'll live my life and be happy. I believe I only got one shot at being on this planet, with everyone who is on this earth, and still to come. My life is my own, and if no one remembers me then so be it. I'll remember myself, and be happy while I can now; on this "miserable" planet that most like to call Earth, and be with my beloved for all eternity. I believe this in my heart; my %100 full blooded human heart. I believe in my heart...and my heart is the greatest gift I've received in this life...because I belive in hope.
I'm sorry about the long ness of this entry, and all the confusion it probably caused. I guess we'll call an inside on how my thoughts go inside of me. Please, take care everyone.
~Kenshin Fei~
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[21 Jun 2002|10:43am] |
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Eh heh...not what I expected, but what can I say? Hey, at least I'm giving you guys the first thing I got and not what I wanted to get. =p And yeah, I dunno if people like these test things or not so that's why there aren't too many in mine. <^-^>;
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| Ah yes, life. |
[20 Jun 2002|01:56am] |
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Eh heh...takes me forever to write up things ne?
Well...June has seem to become the month of confusion and stress yo. Eh heh...not everyday mind you, but ya know...it's just been really weird and confusing. Don't worry, there are good things that I am going to write about, but those will be for last as to leave off on a good note, er...hopefully. <^^>;
Well then, Dirty Socks is still behind...guess the whole catching up by thurs night didn't happen. But we're still trying to get ourselfs caught up. To be honest, with my job, upcoming expo, paying rent, fixing SwordBreaker, planning out a course of action for Art College, ect ect it becomes hard to find time. [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<o.o>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Eh heh...takes me forever to write up things ne?
Well...June has seem to become the month of confusion and stress yo. Eh heh...not everyday mind you, but ya know...it's just been really weird and confusing. Don't worry, there are good things that I am going to write about, but those will be for last as to leave off on a good note, er...hopefully. <^^>;
Well then, Dirty Socks is still behind...guess the whole catching up by thurs night didn't happen. But we're still trying to get ourselfs caught up. To be honest, with my job, upcoming expo, paying rent, fixing SwordBreaker, planning out a course of action for Art College, ect ect it becomes hard to find time. <o.O> At least our most loyal fans are still staying with us and people seem to be having a good time with the contest we put up until Friday I believe. And to much surprise, no one seems to really complain about things either. The only complaints we had were about speed when we first started out, but other than that nothing bad. That is good right? Seems to be if you ask me. I'm just glad people enjoy the work we do and seem to be real patient with us. <^-^>
Hmm...more things to come in the morning...I came online cuz I couldn't sleep and decided to download some Klonoa music (I love that game!) only to discover that Audio Galaxy is no longer working due to some RIV...something or another stuff. Which makes me sad cuz now where do I go to get music? <;.;> Oh right, end in happiness...that will be when I finish this in the morning yo. <^^>;
::later::
Okay, it's time to finish my entry yo!
I'm going to be applying to the Art College for summer of next year. See, I would go in the fall, but with 3 credit cards, a cell phone and a car payment to still finish wouldn't be a good thing for me to have while going to school. So while I still have a good paying job at the hospital, I'm going to get a second part time job to help out with paying off all my things, and save as much money as I can. Around $4000 to $5000 would be a good goal to set. My parents are right, I never really learned how to set goals for myself and actually do them. If I can accomplish this then I know I'll be fine for the College. Mom and Russ will help me out as much as they can and I'll have to make sure I do these things myself ne? I should get a second job asap like when I get back from AX 2002 or perhaps sooner, heh.
Despite all these weirdy life things I'm doing pretty well and staying happy which is good yo! <^-^> Hmm...I wonder what I'll do at work today? I think I still have a strip left to finish, but perhaps I'll get to draw out something neat on the side ne? I'll be visiting Dako after I get off work and everything and I have Friday off! Yay! I beleive that Friday we'll get to work on our costumes for AX 2002 which I hope goes well and everything. <^-^>
Sanme Gitaroo time, I FINALLY BEAT THE 2ND STAGE ON MASTER! WOOHOO! |
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[07 Jun 2002|09:53am] |
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Hiya yo!
Ahh...time off from work, sweet. Today is the last day that Ryou, Dako and I have to work on our portfolios for the Art Institute. I should draw another Kiwi; one where he isn't all messed up and torn open...I kind of wonder about that yo... [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<o.o>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Hiya yo!
Ahh...time off from work, sweet. Today is the last day that Ryou, Dako and I have to work on our portfolios for the Art Institute. I should draw another Kiwi; one where he isn't all messed up and torn open...I kind of wonder about that yo...<o.O> I feel all hyper and creative! Wai wai wai! Tomorrow is going to be a good day yo! (At least that's what I say. =p)
My Ka-san bought me some new Prisma Markers, woohoo! ::dances:: Hopefully I can color some work as well yo! Which reminds me, I know two (if not more) pics will need to go to people who have been donating to the Dirty Socks AX 2002 fund. Heh, I hope they like what I send them. That can be done on Monday (hopefully...it's been WAY to long yo! <;.;>)
Wai wai wai! I'm really excited yo! I really do hope everything goes well tomorrow. I have to work in Linen at work on Sunday, but hopefully that will be okay. (I don't like it too much yo. =p) We need to see if we can start either in spring or fall.
I hope everyone is having a good day today! Take care everyone!
Same Gitaroo time; same mess I'm trying to clean up in my room yo. <o.o> |
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[04 Jun 2002|11:22am] |
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::yawns:: A goodnight sleep does wonders yo. <^-^>
Anyhow, not much going on for my day today. I'm going to be picking up Dako and going over to the DMV to finally get my thing taken care of. After that is work while drawing two new comics. Hopefully Ryou will have more for me later, but if not that's all right since things have been stressful for him and stuff yo. I hope he feels better soon.
Dako is starting to get over her sickness which is very good yo. Yesterday was interesting. Dako, Ryou and I got together to eat lunch and draw for our upcoming visit to the Art college in San Fran. Poor Ryou got stressed out and drew a cool little sketch of himself being pissed. It was neat! XD Then Batman called and we all deiced to drive to Arden mall to buy new stuff (Well, except for me, since I'm on a very tight budget now =p) Dako bought me a really cool Yu-gi-oh! (I don't know how the proper way to spell that yet) shirt which Iwas like "Whoa! Yugioh! Sweet!" Ryou and I stared to get into the card game last week, go figure. =p Also, Ryou sold his soul and bought an X-box...BILL GATES WILL TAKE OVER ALL OF US!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! WHY DOES THAT SYSTEM NOT HAVE TO SUCK!?!?!?!? JET SET FUTURE, GUNVALYKIE, AND NOW PANZER DRAGOON!? WHY!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! ::dies:: [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<x.x>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] ::yawns:: A goodnight sleep does wonders yo. <^-^>
Anyhow, not much going on for my day today. I'm going to be picking up Dako and going over to the DMV to finally get my thing taken care of. After that is work while drawing two new comics. Hopefully Ryou will have more for me later, but if not that's all right since things have been stressful for him and stuff yo. I hope he feels better soon.
Dako is starting to get over her sickness which is very good yo. Yesterday was interesting. Dako, Ryou and I got together to eat lunch and draw for our upcoming visit to the Art college in San Fran. Poor Ryou got stressed out and drew a cool little sketch of himself being pissed. It was neat! XD Then Batman called and we all deiced to drive to Arden mall to buy new stuff (Well, except for me, since I'm on a very tight budget now =p) Dako bought me a really cool Yu-gi-oh! (I don't know how the proper way to spell that yet) shirt which Iwas like "Whoa! Yugioh! Sweet!" Ryou and I stared to get into the card game last week, go figure. =p Also, Ryou sold his soul and bought an X-box...BILL GATES WILL TAKE OVER ALL OF US!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! WHY DOES THAT SYSTEM NOT HAVE TO SUCK!?!?!?!? JET SET FUTURE, GUNVALYKIE, AND NOW PANZER DRAGOON!? WHY!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! ::dies:: <x.X>;
Well, that's all for now. Same Gitaroo time; I'm going to starve due to lack of food...oro...<x.o>; |
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[02 Jun 2002|10:45am] |
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Bwahahaha! Behold! My journal is now with spiffy background yo! XD All thanks to Dako! ::tackle glomps Dako:: Arigatou yo! Behold the awesome-ness of Taikoubou, the anime chara I have to personally say best represents me. Bwahahaha...beware world beware!!! XD
Why haven't I written anything new this past week? Well, it's been a really stressful week. Having to use all my savings to repair Sword Breaker, work being very busy, trying to find strips to draw out for the web comic, running very low on money, ect ect. Oro...<@.@>; At least things are getting better now. My ka-san and I sat down and made a budget for me so I know how to pay off my bills and how much money I have for food and gas until my next check. It's not a lot so I really need to make it last yo. Hopefully though if I can get an extra day or two a week that would help out a lot yo. <^-^> I'll have to keep looking for a part time job and stuff.
Ryou told me that we should have new scripts for Dirty Socks! His friend from Southern CA came up to visit work a while. His name is Tylor and he's hella cool! Ryou and I named his car the Soyokaze since Tylor is the "Captain" and all. <^-^> We might have two weeks worth of scripts since they'll be about Tylor's visit and everything. I already have a chara profile made out for him...bwahahahaha. XD
Dako graduated! Yay for Dako yo! XD ::hugs and glomps Dako:: Mou...she's sick right now though. I hope she feels better soon and stuff. I'll visit her for a little while before I have to go to work today.
OH! I just remembered! A lady from the Art college in San Fran gave me a call yesterday! She told me that she really wants to me Ryou, (Well, she already knows him a little =p), Dako and myself this upcoming Saturday! Woohoo! XD I better get busy on the art work ne?
Well, that's all for now. Same Gitaroo time; behold the power of time and space as I magically...fall asleep...ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
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[28 May 2002|11:26am] |
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Hiya yo!
Eh heh...as most of ya can see, my journal is in a state of confusion right now. Dako is figuring out how to put up a cool background on my journal and new emotion thingies. Hee, they look hella cool yo! XD Hopefully Dako can figure out things with it soon yo.
I'm going to work soon. I got called in today for 12 PM, so my time is short.
Dako's grandparents are coming tomorrow for her grad. night this Thursday yo. I better get a hair cut tomorrow. (I was going to get one today...but now with work...eh heh) I wonder what they're like? I'll find out yo. =D
Well, that's all for now. Same Gitaroo time; why can I play GunValkyrie like it's easy when it's suppose to have the most complicated controls seen? [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<o.o>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Hiya yo!
Eh heh...as most of ya can see, my journal is in a state of confusion right now. Dako is figuring out how to put up a cool background on my journal and new emotion thingies. Hee, they look hella cool yo! XD Hopefully Dako can figure out things with it soon yo.
I'm going to work soon. I got called in today for 12 PM, so my time is short.
Dako's grandparents are coming tomorrow for her grad. night this Thursday yo. I better get a hair cut tomorrow. (I was going to get one today...but now with work...eh heh) I wonder what they're like? I'll find out yo. =D
Well, that's all for now. Same Gitaroo time; why can I play GunValkyrie like it's easy when it's suppose to have the most complicated controls seen? <o.O>; |
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[27 May 2002|08:59am] |
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BO-WOW-MEOW-POW!
Heh, I got some time to write in my journal again yo!
I got really tired over this weekend yo. I had to wake up at 4 AM on Sat. and Sun. to work Linen at the hospital yo. It's only sup post to take around 6 1/2 hours to do, but I was there until 2 PM on Sat. That wasn't cool yo. ::stretches:: I'm glad to have gotten a goodnight's sleep last night! =D
Saturday was Ryou's birthday! Mou...I wasn't able to buy him a present yet since bills are kickin my arse...but I'll get him on soon! <^^>; Ryou seemed to really enjoy his birthday and I'm glad he did! Too bad I was starting to fall asleep around 8:30 though...eh heh...<^^>;
I'll be hangin out with Dako today and stuff! Hopefully we'll get a chance to play Jet Set Radio Future later. I rented that yo, and GunValkyrie. I wanted to try GunValkyrie just to see if controls are really that bad. (So far Russ and Puff say they are, which ruins the game.) I'll just have to take a shot at it.
Well, same Gitaroo time; Salva No is totally cool yo! Sounds really haunting to me...which I like! <^-^>
Edit: (Just read the update on webcomic)...CRAP!!! I KNEW SOMETHING WAS MISSING!!! [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<o.o>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] BO-WOW-MEOW-POW!
Heh, I got some time to write in my journal again yo!
I got really tired over this weekend yo. I had to wake up at 4 AM on Sat. and Sun. to work Linen at the hospital yo. It's only sup post to take around 6 1/2 hours to do, but I was there until 2 PM on Sat. That wasn't cool yo. ::stretches:: I'm glad to have gotten a goodnight's sleep last night! =D
Saturday was Ryou's birthday! Mou...I wasn't able to buy him a present yet since bills are kickin my arse...but I'll get him on soon! <^^>; Ryou seemed to really enjoy his birthday and I'm glad he did! Too bad I was starting to fall asleep around 8:30 though...eh heh...<^^>;
I'll be hangin out with Dako today and stuff! Hopefully we'll get a chance to play Jet Set Radio Future later. I rented that yo, and GunValkyrie. I wanted to try GunValkyrie just to see if controls are really that bad. (So far Russ and Puff say they are, which ruins the game.) I'll just have to take a shot at it.
Well, same Gitaroo time; Salva No is totally cool yo! Sounds really haunting to me...which I like! <^-^>
Edit: (Just read the update on webcomic)...CRAP!!! I KNEW SOMETHING WAS MISSING!!! <O.O> |
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[24 May 2002|09:33am] |
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Well now, things can FINALLY GET INTO GEAR YO!
Today I will finally be able to get a lot of things done yo. Ryou will be tagging along with me today so things won't be as boring. I'll be getting Dako around 6 PM tonight, but I dunno how long I'll be able to stay awake for tonight. I really need to fall asleep around 9 or 10, no later because I have to work at 5 AM for the next two days, and possibly at 6 am on Monday yo. Ara...life rocks! lol <@.@>;
I'll be needing a second job as well now. Nothing major, just a place to work at 1 or 2 days a week, that's all. lol, it would be cool to work in a video game store yo. <^^> Ah, if only, lol.
Well, I have to leave now yo. Same Gitaroo time, and my Tidus hasn't fallen over in 3 weeks! Woo! New record! <^-^>
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[22 May 2002|12:50pm] |
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::yawns:: I overslept again yo...That's not good I think.
Anyways, I need to get ready soon to go over to the DMV and get things fixed and stuff. I also need to get Swordbreaker (that's my car yo =p) repaired so I can get a smog check done yo. <;.;>
I'm feeling very energetic for some reason yo! I'll need it too since I'll be needing to draw lots of pics to make a portfolio and stuff! Gotta get my things together and impress the 9 helz out of people yo! <^-~>
Same Gitaroo time, the bees will steal my insanity!
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[22 May 2002|01:17am] |
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Wow, I found out a little more info on the whole thing that has been going on...but I dunno if it's true or not. Anywho though, I wouldn't feel right about giving out exact details, but let's just say it would have to involve my mom sacrificing something important for me. To be honest, I wouldn't let her do that. My mom has done so much for me and my little sister; but she feels that she didn't do enough in the past for me. I dunno why, I think she did the best job that she could, and I'm really proud of my mother. She's made enough sacrifices for me, I don't want her to make anymore. I want her to be happy, that's all I want right now. I want my family to be happy again.
I'm sure everything will be fine. When the day actually starts (when I sleep, then wake up yo) I'll be getting together with Ryou to draw some things and mail out stuff. I really need to get to the DMV today as well. Hopefully also I can get ahold of someone at the administration office at the Art Academy and see if I can get an appointment the same day as Ryou. ::sighs:: I hope today goes well.
Poor Dako, she's been really worried for the past two days now. Later on today I'll see her so hopefully her and I can talk about things so she can feel better. I want her to be happy too.
Well, it's late so that's it for now yo. Same Gitaroo time, more FFU music for me...bwahahahaha!
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Ryou and I stayed up until 5 am talking about random things and such yo. Also, Ryou downloaded this weirdy arse game called "Dink Smallwood." Hella weird yo.
I talked to my mom for a bit when I got back to the house. Seems like part of the problem that is going on is that they are worried about me and are wondering what I'm going to do for the future yo. To be honest, I can't blame them. I am 21 after all, but I'm still living at my parents house with no real way to advance myself...so I need to do what is needed. I need to get myself into gear and do what I need to do in order to live on my own and get the career I want. I really need to check out that Art Academy, call up the lady that Ryou is seeing and see if I can get an appointment also. I need to do something, and I need to do this on my own. Without the help of my parents. Friends are ok because all of us don't know what's going on so we learn together. <^-^>;
I need to get going to work now, so perhaps I'll write more later. I really need to get my life in gear and stop wasting time. How can I take care of Dako if I can't even take care of myself really yo.
Same Gitaroo time, Dink Smallwood has major problems yo...
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[20 May 2002|08:59pm] |
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Things don't seem to be going well at home. Something is going on, but no one will tell me what...I really wish I knew yo. I've only thought of 4 different things that could possibly be wrong I think. I could be a possiblily, but most likely not...however, I think that would be the option I would want to be true since I can fix that...the other 3 I have I would not want to be true...
I wish I knew...
Today hasn't all been bad though. I bought lightsabers with my friends and we all went to see Star Wars ep. II. Lightsabers are cool yo. <^-^> Right now I'm at Dako's house. We're going to watch an anime as soon as I'm done with this entry; then she's going to show me some new things that will be appearing in RO. Ultra coolness yo. =D
I'll be staying at Ryou's tonight, so no spider problems for me. Still need to kill that thing yo...it wasn't a small spider. <>.<>; Perhaps I'll show Ryou that 3rd. Houshin Engi DVD I got. It has Tenka in it yo! So yeah, I hope things at my house get better soon. Makes me and Dako worry. Hmm...maybe Ryou can start to help me put together a portfolio. I know Dako will help me out with it too cuz she loves me! =D Even though she bites me... [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<e.e>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Things don't seem to be going well at home. Something is going on, but no one will tell me what...I really wish I knew yo. I've only thought of 4 different things that could possibly be wrong I think. I could be a possiblily, but most likely not...however, I think that would be the option I would want to be true since I can fix that...the other 3 I have I would not want to be true...
I wish I knew...
Today hasn't all been bad though. I bought lightsabers with my friends and we all went to see Star Wars ep. II. Lightsabers are cool yo. <^-^> Right now I'm at Dako's house. We're going to watch an anime as soon as I'm done with this entry; then she's going to show me some new things that will be appearing in RO. Ultra coolness yo. =D
I'll be staying at Ryou's tonight, so no spider problems for me. Still need to kill that thing yo...it wasn't a small spider. <>.<>; Perhaps I'll show Ryou that 3rd. Houshin Engi DVD I got. It has Tenka in it yo! So yeah, I hope things at my house get better soon. Makes me and Dako worry. Hmm...maybe Ryou can start to help me put together a portfolio. I know Dako will help me out with it too cuz she loves me! =D Even though she bites me...<e.e>;
Same Gitaroo time; I'll think of something funny later...I'm sure you'll all understand why if you read any of this. =P |
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Oh crap! I need to go to the DMV today! ANd pay off my bills! ORO!!!!
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Well then, I would have gone to sleep at a reasonable time...but I was hunting down a huge spider last night that went under my bed. I finally gave up around 3:30 and went to bed...stupid spider yo...<-.->;
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Wow, today (or yesterday now?) was actually pretty cool. I finished two comics today so no need to worry about Monday or Tuesday and I got a chance to work more on that manga page I was talking about yesterday...dude, a lot of work is going into this thing. I need to draw something though for a kind person who donated $35 to Ryou and I's anime expo thingy. That will get done this week yo. <^-^>
Hmm...I've been thinking a lot today about the news I received where Kyou got accepted to the Art Academy in San Fran. I've been wanting to go there for years...or at least when I first heard of that school. =p Anywho though...I really think I should try. Money has been the issue of me not going in the past, but I need to grow up and find my own solution to that problem. However, if I do go I for sure do not want to leave Dako and Ryou behind. Kyou would love all of us to go, and Ryou has a thing to go to on June 8th. Dako and I will be going with Ryou as well to check out the school.Personally I think all of us can. We all have the potential and spirt to do so. Yet...everything on this must be thought out. We'll not worry about it though, since we have an expo coming up. Having fun is important yo.
Hmm...if I'm going over there, then I should make a portfolio. That means a lot of new pictures too...which also means I should perhaps have some color ones in there as well...I dunno how to make a portfolio though. [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<o.o>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Wow, today (or yesterday now?) was actually pretty cool. I finished two comics today so no need to worry about Monday or Tuesday and I got a chance to work more on that manga page I was talking about yesterday...dude, a lot of work is going into this thing. I need to draw something though for a kind person who donated $35 to Ryou and I's anime expo thingy. That will get done this week yo. <^-^>
Hmm...I've been thinking a lot today about the news I received where Kyou got accepted to the Art Academy in San Fran. I've been wanting to go there for years...or at least when I first heard of that school. =p Anywho though...I really think I should try. Money has been the issue of me not going in the past, but I need to grow up and find my own solution to that problem. However, if I do go I for sure do not want to leave Dako and Ryou behind. Kyou would love all of us to go, and Ryou has a thing to go to on June 8th. Dako and I will be going with Ryou as well to check out the school.Personally I think all of us can. We all have the potential and spirt to do so. Yet...everything on this must be thought out. We'll not worry about it though, since we have an expo coming up. Having fun is important yo.
Hmm...if I'm going over there, then I should make a portfolio. That means a lot of new pictures too...which also means I should perhaps have some color ones in there as well...I dunno how to make a portfolio though. <o.O>;
I'm a bit worried about my mom. Something felt wrong when Dako and I came over to my house for a bit. I'm wondering if anything is going on.
Until we meet again; same Gitaroo time, tiny midget Gundams with samurai swords rock. =p |
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::yawn:: Good morning everyone yo.
Last night I drew a picture for a manga in progress. It's from my second manga called "Golden Dragon Child Katsumi." I must say it's coming along really well. Except this page won't be used until later in the story...eh heh...just how I work I guess. <^-^>;
Hmm...I need to figure out how to add a background to my journal here. It's kind of plain just sitting here all in blue. Not that I don't like the blue or anything...it's just...why can't one of my pictures be up here? That would be coool yo! (An extra O just because it's that cool)
Well, I'll write later. Same Gitaroo time, same game I'm getting my asre kicked in right now. ::points to Forever Kingdom::
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[19 May 2002|01:32am] |
Behold, the first entry in my journal thingy.
Hmm...I guess I started this because I just wanted to say what was on my mind at the time and stuff ne?
Anywho, this year so far has been one of MAJOR changes for my friends and I. I turned 21; my friend Kyou I heard just got accepted into the Art Academy in San Fran; my best-friend Ryou and I finally got our on-line web comic up and running so things are runnin smoothly on that yo; also, my best-friend/girlfriend Dako will be graduating in just a few weeks! <^-^>
Change though...most of my friends hate change. Myself, I don't mind change. I grew up with many changes so I adapt easily...or so I can sometimes. To be honest, I wish I knew what to do right now. This is the year where all our lives (for my friends and I anyways, =P) will really be impacted. How will things work out? We'll all still be together right? I wish I knew.
Love can survive through anything...or so I believe. I know many wouldn't agree with me, but that's just the way I am. I believe in "foolish" things. Is love just a foolish thing? Not to me, and not to any of my friends either. Love is a thing of growth, patience, understanding, trust...if Dako were to ever go to a college far away and wouldn't return for a few years I would wait for her. I would wait because I believe she will return, and we can be together again. Yes, I do trust and believe in her that much. The wait wouldn't kill me nor make my love for her grow weak; it would just make my love stronger. I'm sorry, I guess I don;t know how to explain that well right now...eh heh...
Hmm...I don't think this is the best way to start off a journal. Many, and I do mean MANY people seem to have something against "love." From the looks of it I dunno if any of this makes any sense. Oh well, my journal, live with it yo. =P You'll never know what I'll write about next.
As soon as I figure out how I'm totally going to personalize my journal. Hey, if I'm paying then I'm going to get my full money's worth yo. <^-^>
Til next time; same Gitaroo time, same oreo cookie that's been on my desk for a week now. [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<o.o>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Behold, the first entry in my journal thingy.
Hmm...I guess I started this because I just wanted to say what was on my mind at the time and stuff ne?
Anywho, this year so far has been one of MAJOR changes for my friends and I. I turned 21; my friend Kyou I heard just got accepted into the Art Academy in San Fran; my best-friend Ryou and I finally got our on-line web comic up and running so things are runnin smoothly on that yo; also, my best-friend/girlfriend Dako will be graduating in just a few weeks! <^-^>
Change though...most of my friends hate change. Myself, I don't mind change. I grew up with many changes so I adapt easily...or so I can sometimes. To be honest, I wish I knew what to do right now. This is the year where all our lives (for my friends and I anyways, =P) will really be impacted. How will things work out? We'll all still be together right? I wish I knew.
Love can survive through anything...or so I believe. I know many wouldn't agree with me, but that's just the way I am. I believe in "foolish" things. Is love just a foolish thing? Not to me, and not to any of my friends either. Love is a thing of growth, patience, understanding, trust...if Dako were to ever go to a college far away and wouldn't return for a few years I would wait for her. I would wait because I believe she will return, and we can be together again. Yes, I do trust and believe in her that much. The wait wouldn't kill me nor make my love for her grow weak; it would just make my love stronger. I'm sorry, I guess I don;t know how to explain that well right now...eh heh...
Hmm...I don't think this is the best way to start off a journal. Many, and I do mean MANY people seem to have something against "love." From the looks of it I dunno if any of this makes any sense. Oh well, my journal, live with it yo. =P You'll never know what I'll write about next.
As soon as I figure out how I'm totally going to personalize my journal. Hey, if I'm paying then I'm going to get my full money's worth yo. <^-^>
Til next time; same Gitaroo time, same oreo cookie that's been on my desk for a week now. <o.O>;
~Fei |
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